2chicksand1oldlady

Two sisters taking care of their mom while trying to live life and find love.

Following Through On The Promise

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Do you ever have those days where you feel like the world is on your shoulders? You are emotionally “full”, and the addition of more thing is going to cause your “emotional bridge” to break. I’m having one of those days today.

I have been running all day. Work was hectic, but fun! Then, I drive home to begin my “side jobs”. Tonight, I’m a chauffeur,grocery shopper, and errand runner :).

I’m sure all of my caregivers, moms, single moms & dads, etc. can relate. I’m just sitting down after grabbing a quick bite to eat, & typing this blog is the most relaxation I’ve had all day :).

I must admit, I’m super excited to have this opportunity to share with you. This blog helps me follow through on my promise. I never thought this would be such an important thing for me to do. I never saw myself blogging. But, God told me that I would find comfort & healing in sharing these words. Now, I can’t imagine my life without it.

This is not the easiest thing for me to do. Sharing my inner most thoughts & feelings has always been a challenge for me. It’s freeing & terrifying at the same time :). However, I’ve learned you have to be willing to move when called.

Sometimes, it doesn’t feel comfortable. There won’t always be people in your corner to cheer you on. They may even be adding to your confusion & frustration. But, you have to know if you take a step,God won’t let you fall. He wants you to move towards what he has for you. He wants you to walk in your promise.

That walk is not easy. You are going to be challenged & distracted constantly. There will be days when you feel like, you should settle for the status quo. But, you have to know the promise is not about being average, it’s about being extraordinary.

God wants us all to live extraordinary purpose driven lives, its just a matter of us taking the steps to live that way. The time is now. It doesn’t matter what you’re facing. You have to be strong & claim your purpose. When things are challenging, you have to pray & talk yourself back to reality.

It works, I did it tonight as I walked through the grocery store pulling a cart pushed by my mom before I went to pick up my sister from work. I also had a “double dip” of encouragement self prayer as I pulled into my garage at 8:30pm, after running some more errands :). Sometimes you have to speak over yourself, so you can face another day on the right path, in your right mind.

The pressures of life can be overwhelming, and not everyone can handle them. But, I hope by trying to encourage & focus myself; that I encourage & focus you too. Iron sharpenth iron. Never give up on what is for you. Focus on it, and let it heal you. Take time to invest, rest, and encourage yourself. You’re worth it. It’s never too late to reach your promise. Follow through!

Until we meet again.

xo

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Every Day Is Resurrection Day

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This morning I was in church reflecting on the true implications of the “Resurrection”. To think that God sent his only son to die on the cross, and rise on the third day for our sins. That is such a powerful act of love. How many of us would be willing to die for someone else? Especially, someone who you may not even know. We are so blessed, and it made me realize that everyday is an opportunity for us to move past the things or people who hold us back from living in our purpose. 

The enemy comes to seek and destroy, and typically he uses our fears to hold us back. The enemy knows that in moments of fear and frustration, we’re likely to make permanent irrational decisions in temporary situations. This isn’t a new approach, all you have to do is look in the bible. Can you say Judas Iscariot? 

The funny thing is that even though the players change, the game still stays the same. We get bogged down in challenging situations, and can’t see the way out. So, we make decisions that deter us from living our best lives possible. 

As a caregiver, this is something I’ve felt first hand. I never thought I would be a caregiver, and when it happened it really turned my life upside down. I was living on fear and frustration. I lost myself. But, I’ve found me again and this time I won’t lose her :).  I realized I had to do something different. I had to walk on faith, and know my purpose is too great to be deterred. So, I closed the door on darkness and depression; and decided to walk in the sun. Ever since I made that decision, life has been amazing.

Don’t be afraid to let go of the things that cause you pain. The people or situations that make you feel fear and frustration need to go bye bye :). To live in the light, you have to rise past the darkness, and move forward. Every day is opportunity  for resurrection, it’s never too late to be free and happy!

Until we meet again!

xo

 

 

 

 

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Budweiser & Bull Shit : Sorry, I got to call it like I see it :)

ImageThis picture says it all right now! I’m going to take a little departure from our regularly scheduled program to talk about dating :). In particular, my journey on this road to love. I took a break from dating after my Dad passed to get myself together, and focus on my family. But, recently I decided to jump back in. I finally feel ready to open myself up to love, and I’m really enjoying this feeling. I just am not enjoying some of the dates and/or people, I’m meeting along the way. 

I know I didn’t corner the market on heartache and pain. But, I also have not cornered the market on crazy and stupid either. At least, I hope not :). Tonight I went on a date with a seemingly nice guy that I’ve been talking with. We met online, and this was our first time meeting. He was handsome, and seemed like his usual intelligent self. But, boy was I wrong….. 

We’re chatting and sharing an appetizer. When he asks if I want to share a meal. I wasn’t that hungry, and thought that’s not a problem. I’m a pescatarian (fish-eating vegetarian), so as long as he can manage it, we’re good :). We order our meal ( Six Cheese Mac & Cheese), and continue our conversation. Ten minutes, in things start to go south.

He asks if I’m ok with canceling the order, because he’s not that hungry.  I’m not starving, and he’s giving me a look like he really wants to cancel this order. But, I would like to eat something. So, I tell him to cancel that order; and I’ll get a salad. I guess that sparked something in him. He then proceeds to tell me that was just a “test to see if I was really hungry?”. WTH? What do you mean “see if I was really hungry?” Why would I order food if I didn’t plan to eat? 

Well, I’m not too happy about that test. I graduated from school a long time ago. Testing is not required or needed on my end. So, I let him know politely not to do that anymore. If you want to know anything or have a concern, please ask me directly. We’re too old for anything less. He tells me he was just joking, and apologizes. We move past it, and he asks for the bill. 

Foolishly, I think we are all good at this point. One moment of B.S. behind us, and we’re ending the evening on a good note :). I spoke too soon. The bill comes, and he asks if I have a few dollars for the tip. Unfortunately, I don’t. I’m notorious for not carrying cash (my friends would agree) . But, I have my credit card. I offer to pay, if he needs me to do so. Yes, I know that’s always a strike against a man, if they let you pay. But, I’m always prepared in case I need to cover a check. He says, ” I know you won’t go out with me again, if I let you pay ?” Really? You know what they say about people who assume :).  

Anyway, here’s where he decides to really seal this deal. He says, “Since I bought you dinner, will you buy me a six pack of beer?” Can we say “I know I’m getting Punked at this moment’? I was so stunned, the only thing I can muster was “Really?”. He was as serious as a heart attack. He proceeded to explain that was a test to see if I was down for him. So, a six pack of beer is how you measure my feelings towards you? It’s hard to imagine this educated handsome man equates his worth to a six pack of Budweiser.  Wow! Lack of self-esteem  is a powerful thing. 

All I can say is he got that six pack. I got tired of trying to rationalize how stupid that was. How you will never know love if you can’t stop making other people pay, because of people in your past. How that six pack cost him a good woman (yes, I’m a good woman with her own, who will share it with the right person.)

So, I hope it keeps him warm at night, supports him, loves him, challenges him, and makes him a better person.

Lesson learned: “Love yourself enough to know your worth, and to take the time to fix yourself when you’ve been damaged by others. People shouldn’t have to pay for past mistakes.”

Until we meet again!

xo

 

 

 

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There’s No Us Without You

There's No Us Without You

Today is a monumental day in our lives. Today is the day the “Old Lady”, our mother was born :). She’s sixty-seven years young today, and that would not be enough time to tell her how much she means to us.

My mother has been a source of strength, laughter, tears, hugs, spankings, stories, meals, encouragement, aggravation, and countless memories for us :). We would be lost without her.

Our relationship has gone through many changes. Especially, after my Father’s death. But, I can honestly say that I’m grateful for all of the changes we’ve been through.

Our experiences have helped me find my strength and worth. She has taught me about love through her memories of my Father. She also showed me that I wasn’t built to break by challenging me to give more to my family. She has taught me that family always must come first, and that is the true key to wealth and success.

There is so much more I could say. But, the words would never cover the feelings. So, I’ll end by saying that I thank God for having the insight to say that Joyce Davis should be my mother. He knew before I was even a twinkle in her eyes, that she was the only one that could bring me into this world. That descision was the beginning of my blessings; and I’ve been and will continue to be blessed because of that insight.

Happy Birthday Mommy!!!

xo

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